Why I’m Grateful for “Failure”
In elementary school we dreamed about what we wanted to be when we grew up. By high school, those dreams started to become reality. Pressure was on to decide what college to attend, what major to choose, and what color scheme you should decorate your freshman dorm, important decisions am I right?
My dreams have changed a lot over the years, but the past two years I dreamed of graduating college and moving to New York. In my head, my dream job out of school would be to work for a fashion company or publication as a social media editor. Well, here I am six months post graduation sitting in my subleased apartment in Orange County, California. I am on the completely opposite coast and my job couldn’t be further away than fashion–fast food to be exact.
With all this said, my “dream” didn’t pan out perfectly and it took me a few months to realize how ok that actually was. Once I realized that I was not a failure, my whole thought process changed. I am so grateful for the opportunities that came my way after graduation and can’t imagine a more perfect transition from college to the super exciting life of an adult. My eyes and mind have been opened to new opportunities that wouldn’t have been possible if I went to New York (more details to come on this).
I stopped trying to plan every detail of my life and handed the reins fully over to God. It’s the moment you throw your hands up in complete surrender to God where you find peace and comfort. Trust me, I know what it’s like to be frustrated and anxious about what the future holds, but I can now say I’m content and at peace for the first time in a long time.
While I truly hope your 5-year plan plays out perfectly, I understand
sometimes most of the time that doesn’t happen. It doesn’t mean you failed at following your dreams, it just means that your plans have changed and evolved. Change can be is good and when you refocus the way you view change, your life will never be the same.
Photos by: Lydia Fujimura
Outfit details: Dress: Anthropologie